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There are a decent amount of times in my life when I want to sit down and type/write out every single thought & act that I've ever had or done before. There's so many books that I want to write and put out in the world for that one person's life that I can save and who will contact me later and tell me that it is because of my detailed life story that I decided to express to the world which made them explore the option and come to know Christ. I want to write books on every different topic that has made me who I am today and has forced me to grow because of it. There's other times when I know how overwhelming of a detailed process that it could be to carry out this book task and it is at these times when I may sit down to reach out to some personable individuals on the idea or to see if this process would be beneficial and bring in readers, but it is when I never get a response from people, a sign of disfriendship & personal attack of silence. It is when I sit down in this silence with myself, that I can't help but to let the tears flow; for it is because of the truth that I know in these silent of times that God and I are alone together. The all listening ear. It's silence of others and loudness of truth, that when we are alone, it's this reflection period that is shown. It's this tough love which we do receive in our youth that always has this effect of change and growth and the showing of that who is constant.
There are several types of books that I want to write. Feel free to approach me and see what some of these are. I think that these future books will be full text, different from that of "A Talk With God."
I've had the thought in the past where I could throw myself into a mission field and be comfortable there, but I'm not sure if this is a strong point in me or not....I would never truly know until I got out there and did it. I do know that I would have to be with the right positive force if I did however. I think that this is why I end up coming to writing. I feel that I need to do something more than I am and that maybe I will work magic in this aspect. The major fear of following through with this book task is one in which I witnessed so often growing up. You can spend a great deal of time creating something that you may feel is perfect, when if you never are able to receive this positive reinforcement or a response from the right person, it is then much more difficult to find the motivation to continue such a ministry. So many people have so many failures before they perfect a masterpiece. How in a ministry such as this can you maintain a positive attitude when.
So where do you start, what do you do, where do you go? Do you do it for you? Do it for Them? Do it for Him? How do you decide? Is it free will or his? In the end, I still come up feeling empty and not sure as to if a new road, one not yet fully explored and traveled by myself is a correct destination. It is a decision which will come one day on a whim, I just hope that day isn't too late.
There are several types of books that I want to write. Feel free to approach me and see what some of these are. I think that these future books will be full text, different from that of "A Talk With God."
I've had the thought in the past where I could throw myself into a mission field and be comfortable there, but I'm not sure if this is a strong point in me or not....I would never truly know until I got out there and did it. I do know that I would have to be with the right positive force if I did however. I think that this is why I end up coming to writing. I feel that I need to do something more than I am and that maybe I will work magic in this aspect. The major fear of following through with this book task is one in which I witnessed so often growing up. You can spend a great deal of time creating something that you may feel is perfect, when if you never are able to receive this positive reinforcement or a response from the right person, it is then much more difficult to find the motivation to continue such a ministry. So many people have so many failures before they perfect a masterpiece. How in a ministry such as this can you maintain a positive attitude when.
So where do you start, what do you do, where do you go? Do you do it for you? Do it for Them? Do it for Him? How do you decide? Is it free will or his? In the end, I still come up feeling empty and not sure as to if a new road, one not yet fully explored and traveled by myself is a correct destination. It is a decision which will come one day on a whim, I just hope that day isn't too late.
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